I wanted to write about something meaningful.

And then I thought, what gives a thing its meaning?

It all went downhill after that as I drowned into spirals of thoughts.

Almost everything in life has an off switch: could I have just turned everything off?

I needed to disconnect - I just didn’t know how to. Somebody, help.

What gives a thing its meaning?

Is it the feelings we associate the thing with?

The memories linked to that thing? The people we remember?

I tell you: all of the above.

You see:

A pop song lyric can be as meaningful to one person as a poetry verse can be to another,

A  handwritten sticky note can mean to a person as much as a love letter can mean, 

And so, things oh so trivial to one can mean the world to another one - it  all comes down to what they’re linked to.

Disconnecting - a word both tiring and relieving. And  yet, it was the most fitting word to describe what I was going through.

Why did it mean so much to me?

Is it because, right after thinking of all of that, I disconnected?

No sound was too loud, and nothing was too important nor too meaningful - all was dull to me. Was that what my life was turning out to truly be?

I needed a break from my thoughts - someone to put me out of my misery.

But then again, what gives a thing its meaning?

I couldn’t stop thinking about it.

A cycle of never-ending spirals sucked me in - devouring my every thought.

I wanted to reflect - why  were my thoughts so messy? Did I lose the ability to think or was I simply overthinking?

We experience life individually and we affiliate our feelings deeply with everything, giving each thing a meaning only our soul would get.

However, we also continuously put out more and more of ourselves out there - not caring about what we have left to give: how long will we be able to continue to give? Shouldn’t that be the question?

I was at a stage in my life where I felt disconnected - from everything.

And that saved me - I had nothing more to give.

One setback away from a breakdown: I’ve almost burnt myself out.

For, one simple question: “What gives a thing its meaning?” took me an awful lot of time to figure out as my thoughts didn’t feel like mine. It was then when I disconnected that my answers finally came to me – calm and collected.

We live in a world that changes with each perspective - in a world purely subjective.

And as beautiful as it may be that we spend our whole lives searching for a meaning for everything, to finally answer the question:

What gives a thing its meaning?

I’ll tell you: we do.

Was going through all the chaos of my thoughts worth it? You may ask.

You tell me. After all, I’ve found my answers. Why shouldn’t you?

Allow yourself to disconnect..

You’d be surprised at how much you could discover.